1 00:00:38,237 --> 00:00:40,740 [piano intro] 2 00:00:44,710 --> 00:00:49,415 [woman] ♪ The snow is snowing 3 00:00:49,448 --> 00:00:52,652 ♪ The wind is blowing ♪ 4 00:00:52,685 --> 00:00:58,224 ♪ But I can weather the storm 5 00:00:58,257 --> 00:01:04,564 ♪ What do I care How much it may storm? ♪ 6 00:01:06,699 --> 00:01:11,504 ♪ I've got my love To keep me warm ♪ 7 00:01:13,606 --> 00:01:17,310 ♪ I can't remember ♪ 8 00:01:17,343 --> 00:01:20,646 ♪ A worse December ♪ 9 00:01:20,679 --> 00:01:26,452 ♪ Just watch Those icicles form ♪ 10 00:01:26,485 --> 00:01:32,826 ♪ What do I care If icicles form? ♪ 11 00:01:34,693 --> 00:01:39,632 ♪ I've got my love To keep me warm ♪ 12 00:01:41,634 --> 00:01:45,338 ♪ Off with my overcoat ♪ 13 00:01:45,371 --> 00:01:48,608 ♪ Off with my glove ♪ 14 00:01:48,641 --> 00:01:52,311 ♪ I need no overcoat ♪ 15 00:01:52,344 --> 00:01:55,615 ♪ I'm burning with love ♪ 16 00:01:55,648 --> 00:01:59,252 ♪ My heart's on fire ♪ 17 00:01:59,285 --> 00:02:02,622 ♪ The flame grows higher ♪ 18 00:02:02,655 --> 00:02:07,160 ♪ So I will weather the storm 19 00:02:08,194 --> 00:02:14,601 ♪ What do I care How much it may storm? ♪ 20 00:02:16,669 --> 00:02:19,639 ♪ I've got my love To keep me warm ♪ 21 00:02:19,672 --> 00:02:21,441 [woman laughs] 22 00:02:38,591 --> 00:02:41,461 [man, woman on TV, indistinct] 23 00:02:45,598 --> 00:02:48,434 How does the Fitbit know you're walking? 24 00:02:49,501 --> 00:02:51,671 Because your arms are moving. 25 00:02:52,404 --> 00:02:53,806 Say they weren't. 26 00:02:53,839 --> 00:02:56,442 It's on your arm. Who walks without moving their arm? 27 00:02:56,475 --> 00:02:59,212 Well, duh. Someone who's had a stroke. 28 00:02:59,245 --> 00:03:01,981 And I know what you're gonna say, so both arms. 29 00:03:02,014 --> 00:03:04,584 A stroke? Both arms? 30 00:03:02,014 --> 00:03:04,584 Yes. 31 00:03:06,285 --> 00:03:07,687 Put it on your ankle. 32 00:03:07,720 --> 00:03:11,457 You'd think that, but it's not in the instructions, is it? 33 00:03:12,891 --> 00:03:14,827 When are you gonna take the decorations down? 34 00:03:14,860 --> 00:03:16,996 When are you gonna take 'em down? 35 00:03:14,860 --> 00:03:16,996 It's your job. 36 00:03:17,029 --> 00:03:18,531 I put them up, you take them down. 37 00:03:18,564 --> 00:03:20,266 You put them up, I take them down. 38 00:03:20,299 --> 00:03:22,802 Just add "baby" to that, and it could be the title of a song. 39 00:03:22,835 --> 00:03:23,669 Hmm. 40 00:03:23,703 --> 00:03:26,005 You put them up, I take them down, baby. 41 00:03:26,038 --> 00:03:27,573 [chuckles] 42 00:03:27,606 --> 00:03:29,776 You should write it. 43 00:03:27,606 --> 00:03:29,776 I will. 44 00:03:32,011 --> 00:03:35,014 Are you gonna get in the shower first? 45 00:03:32,011 --> 00:03:35,014 No. 46 00:03:35,047 --> 00:03:36,582 Gonna have a beer. 47 00:03:36,615 --> 00:03:38,784 Well, that defeats the whole purpose of walking. 48 00:03:38,817 --> 00:03:40,820 -No, it doesn't. -How does it not? 49 00:03:40,853 --> 00:03:43,723 You're out walking to get a bit fitter, lose a bit of weight. 50 00:03:43,756 --> 00:03:45,391 How does the beer add to that? 51 00:03:45,424 --> 00:03:47,994 The walking allows me to have the beer. 52 00:03:48,027 --> 00:03:49,428 Oh, right. 53 00:03:49,461 --> 00:03:51,731 Plus, more to the point, I'm a grown man. 54 00:03:51,764 --> 00:03:53,866 If I want to sit in my own house and have a beer 55 00:03:53,899 --> 00:03:57,737 after putting a lot of effort into a good strenuous walk, 56 00:03:57,770 --> 00:03:59,906 that is what I shall do. 57 00:04:00,739 --> 00:04:02,375 [chuckles] 58 00:04:12,818 --> 00:04:14,854 [water running] 59 00:04:33,706 --> 00:04:37,610 [man on TV] ...after a thrillin 3-2 victory for United the last time they played... 60 00:04:37,643 --> 00:04:39,812 [woman] Tom, can you come up here? 61 00:04:40,879 --> 00:04:44,384 Yes, sweetness? 62 00:04:40,879 --> 00:04:44,384 Feel my left breast. 63 00:04:44,983 --> 00:04:47,687 Just the one? This is a new approach. 64 00:04:47,720 --> 00:04:49,922 Just feel it. 65 00:04:47,720 --> 00:04:49,922 What, here? 66 00:04:49,955 --> 00:04:51,758 Yeah. 67 00:04:52,658 --> 00:04:54,060 Can you feel anything? 68 00:04:54,093 --> 00:04:55,328 A lump? 69 00:04:55,361 --> 00:04:57,396 I feel something. 70 00:04:57,429 --> 00:04:58,898 A lump? 71 00:04:58,931 --> 00:05:00,566 Lump-ish. 72 00:05:00,999 --> 00:05:02,435 It's a lump. 73 00:05:02,468 --> 00:05:03,803 Could be anything. 74 00:05:03,836 --> 00:05:06,806 It can't be anything. It can only be one of a few things. 75 00:05:06,839 --> 00:05:08,841 This could be nothing. 76 00:05:06,839 --> 00:05:08,841 Well... 77 00:05:09,908 --> 00:05:12,912 Go to the doctor's in the morning. 78 00:05:09,908 --> 00:05:12,912 Yeah. 79 00:05:12,945 --> 00:05:14,413 It will be fine. 80 00:05:14,446 --> 00:05:17,717 Lumps, bumps, pains, aches. 81 00:05:17,750 --> 00:05:19,819 You're of an age, kid. 82 00:05:19,852 --> 00:05:22,388 I can go now? I've done enough groping? 83 00:05:22,421 --> 00:05:25,058 [laughs] 84 00:05:22,421 --> 00:05:25,058 Unless, of course... 85 00:05:26,058 --> 00:05:27,126 You've done enough. 86 00:05:27,159 --> 00:05:28,594 Magic touch. 87 00:06:29,922 --> 00:06:31,924 [chimes] 88 00:06:38,697 --> 00:06:41,567 [man on TV, indistinct] 89 00:06:56,048 --> 00:06:59,051 What I'm feeling, the shape of it is quite distinct. 90 00:06:59,084 --> 00:07:01,187 That would suggest to me that it's a cyst. 91 00:07:01,220 --> 00:07:03,589 You had a mammogram a while ago, didn't you? 92 00:07:03,622 --> 00:07:05,791 Yes, about eight months ago. 93 00:07:05,824 --> 00:07:09,662 To be on the safe side, we'll arrange an appointment for you at the hospital. 94 00:07:09,695 --> 00:07:11,730 -Okay. -This is just precautionary. 95 00:07:11,763 --> 00:07:14,133 I think it's a cyst. 96 00:07:11,763 --> 00:07:14,133 All right. 97 00:07:15,167 --> 00:07:16,769 How's Tom? 98 00:07:16,802 --> 00:07:19,238 [woman] Oh, the same. 99 00:07:19,271 --> 00:07:21,073 He's Tom all the time. 100 00:07:28,113 --> 00:07:31,617 Do you notice anything different about the soup? 101 00:07:31,650 --> 00:07:35,688 There is. What is it? 102 00:07:31,650 --> 00:07:35,688 You tell me. 103 00:07:35,721 --> 00:07:39,225 Is this a quiz? If I get it right, do I get another bowl of soup? 104 00:07:39,258 --> 00:07:41,494 For once in your life, can you be bloody normal? 105 00:07:41,527 --> 00:07:45,231 I am normal. Very normal. Let's see if I get this. 106 00:07:45,264 --> 00:07:48,100 I want you to get it right. That means what I did worked. 107 00:07:48,133 --> 00:07:52,138 I'm gonna get it wrong on purpose now. 108 00:07:48,133 --> 00:07:52,138 Just say it, idiot. 109 00:07:58,677 --> 00:08:00,713 -Worcestershire sauce. -Correct. 110 00:08:00,746 --> 00:08:03,215 -I'm good, baby. -I'm good. 111 00:08:03,248 --> 00:08:04,583 [letter box rattles] 112 00:08:04,616 --> 00:08:06,018 Your man is getting later and later. 113 00:08:06,051 --> 00:08:07,953 What would happen if you were waiting on something? 114 00:08:07,986 --> 00:08:10,656 I was waiting on something. 115 00:08:10,689 --> 00:08:12,024 Oh, right. 116 00:08:25,637 --> 00:08:27,206 Hospital appointment. 117 00:08:28,140 --> 00:08:29,175 When? 118 00:08:30,309 --> 00:08:32,011 [sighs] Um... 119 00:08:34,046 --> 00:08:35,081 Next week. 120 00:08:36,615 --> 00:08:38,050 Great. The sooner the better. 121 00:08:39,751 --> 00:08:41,921 Yeah. No, no, I know. It's good. 122 00:08:58,303 --> 00:09:00,072 [engine starts] 123 00:09:23,829 --> 00:09:25,831 I don't know what the situation is here. 124 00:09:25,864 --> 00:09:29,835 Do I go in with you? Do I wait? What? 125 00:09:29,868 --> 00:09:32,004 -It's a mammogram. -I know. 126 00:09:32,037 --> 00:09:34,807 Well, they won't allow you into that. 127 00:09:34,840 --> 00:09:37,743 I know, but after? 128 00:09:37,776 --> 00:09:41,914 Oh, I don't know. If you have to wait, you can have a cup of tea. 129 00:09:42,748 --> 00:09:44,383 I'm going off tea. 130 00:09:44,416 --> 00:09:46,719 You know what I mean. 131 00:09:48,687 --> 00:09:50,255 It will be all right. 132 00:09:50,288 --> 00:09:51,791 I know. 133 00:09:53,992 --> 00:09:55,361 They charge you for parking. 134 00:09:55,394 --> 00:09:58,197 Even if you're a patient? 135 00:09:58,230 --> 00:10:00,266 I think so. 136 00:10:00,999 --> 00:10:02,735 Everything's money. 137 00:10:03,368 --> 00:10:04,737 I know. 138 00:11:03,428 --> 00:11:05,798 [chattering] 139 00:12:01,853 --> 00:12:04,056 [TV playing, indistinct] 140 00:12:33,018 --> 00:12:35,554 [nurse] And this is the little biopsy, okay? 141 00:12:35,587 --> 00:12:37,790 And we're going in now. 142 00:12:37,823 --> 00:12:39,492 One, two, three. 143 00:12:41,326 --> 00:12:44,997 [groans] 144 00:12:41,326 --> 00:12:44,997 Hold on. We're in the area now. 145 00:12:46,031 --> 00:12:47,966 And that... It's coming. 146 00:12:47,999 --> 00:12:49,468 One, two, three. 147 00:12:49,501 --> 00:12:50,836 [loud click] 148 00:12:49,501 --> 00:12:50,836 Ow! 149 00:12:50,869 --> 00:12:52,371 [nurse] Super. Well done. 150 00:12:58,443 --> 00:13:00,979 I thought you said you were going off tea. 151 00:13:01,012 --> 00:13:04,082 Yeah. Just thinking about it. 152 00:13:04,115 --> 00:13:07,153 No definite decision has been taken as yet. 153 00:13:09,855 --> 00:13:12,057 Maybe we should both stop. 154 00:13:13,124 --> 00:13:15,161 Cut out caffeine altogether. 155 00:13:13,124 --> 00:13:15,161 Why? 156 00:13:16,228 --> 00:13:17,263 Why you? 157 00:13:18,330 --> 00:13:21,433 Taste of it. Sometimes it makes me feel a bit sick. 158 00:13:22,167 --> 00:13:23,502 I was thinking healthier. 159 00:13:23,535 --> 00:13:26,038 No, that would be just one more thing for you-- 160 00:13:26,071 --> 00:13:28,307 For me to what? 161 00:13:28,340 --> 00:13:30,943 For you to hit me with a stick about. 162 00:13:31,643 --> 00:13:34,079 Very good. 163 00:13:34,112 --> 00:13:35,981 I should hit you with something. 164 00:13:39,618 --> 00:13:41,020 [sighs] 165 00:13:44,222 --> 00:13:47,393 There's a lot of waiting in hospitals, huh? 166 00:13:49,027 --> 00:13:50,362 I don't like it. 167 00:13:51,496 --> 00:13:53,332 I don't like all the sick people either. 168 00:13:53,365 --> 00:13:55,334 How can that be a good thing, 169 00:13:55,367 --> 00:13:57,202 putting all the sick people together? 170 00:13:57,235 --> 00:13:59,471 How is that gonna make anybody better? 171 00:14:00,906 --> 00:14:01,940 Depressing. 172 00:14:01,973 --> 00:14:04,076 I don't think I could do it. 173 00:14:04,109 --> 00:14:06,545 If you had to do it, you'd have to do it. 174 00:14:07,946 --> 00:14:10,215 Hospitals remind me of death. 175 00:14:10,248 --> 00:14:12,418 Lovely. 176 00:14:10,248 --> 00:14:12,418 You know what I mean. 177 00:14:14,252 --> 00:14:17,356 So, if I have to come in, you won't come and visit me? 178 00:14:17,389 --> 00:14:20,325 They're not gonna bring you in just for a cyst. 179 00:14:20,358 --> 00:14:22,494 All I know is it felt serious. 180 00:14:23,528 --> 00:14:26,398 That's because of all the other sick people around you. 181 00:14:28,400 --> 00:14:31,303 You see the nonsense you talk? 182 00:14:32,137 --> 00:14:33,438 How do you get through life? 183 00:14:33,471 --> 00:14:35,374 All right. You're still here with me. 184 00:14:35,407 --> 00:14:38,043 I'm just doing that out of spite. 185 00:14:38,076 --> 00:14:40,279 Right back at you, kid. 186 00:14:40,312 --> 00:14:42,547 I realize it's been a very long day for both of you. 187 00:14:42,580 --> 00:14:45,384 We would have liked to have been able to give you a firm answer, 188 00:14:45,417 --> 00:14:48,120 but we can't tell yet what we're dealing with. 189 00:14:48,153 --> 00:14:49,988 What are all the tests about then? 190 00:14:50,021 --> 00:14:51,089 Tom. 191 00:14:50,021 --> 00:14:51,089 Yeah, I know. 192 00:14:51,122 --> 00:14:53,425 I realize it's very frustrating. 193 00:14:53,458 --> 00:14:55,994 We found some cells that are concerning. 194 00:14:56,027 --> 00:15:01,166 On a scale of one to five, one being it isn't cancerous and five being it is, 195 00:15:01,199 --> 00:15:03,302 at the moment, we're sitting at three. 196 00:15:12,644 --> 00:15:15,480 Do you wanna go out for something to eat tonight? 197 00:15:15,513 --> 00:15:17,082 Thai or something? 198 00:15:18,383 --> 00:15:19,485 Um... 199 00:15:20,519 --> 00:15:23,689 No, I've already taken the chops out for dinner. 200 00:15:23,722 --> 00:15:25,124 I just thought... 201 00:15:26,191 --> 00:15:28,394 I know. I'm all right. 202 00:15:30,362 --> 00:15:32,564 I know. Baby, it wasn't... 203 00:15:35,100 --> 00:15:36,602 Breaks the day up. 204 00:15:38,336 --> 00:15:40,406 No, I want to cook the chops. 205 00:16:33,825 --> 00:16:35,527 She doesn't know. 206 00:16:33,825 --> 00:16:35,527 Oh. 207 00:16:35,560 --> 00:16:38,363 You'd think that would be the type of thing they would know. 208 00:16:38,396 --> 00:16:41,433 Did you tell her your stroke scenario? 209 00:16:38,396 --> 00:16:41,433 Oh, yes. 210 00:16:43,234 --> 00:16:45,103 We need tomato juice. 211 00:16:45,136 --> 00:16:46,505 That's the next aisle. 212 00:16:46,538 --> 00:16:49,241 [Tom] I know that. I'm just saying we need it. 213 00:16:50,241 --> 00:16:51,743 You drink too much tomato juice. 214 00:16:51,776 --> 00:16:54,780 That stuff made from concentrate is full of sugar. 215 00:16:54,813 --> 00:16:57,416 They used to have the stuff that isn't concentrate, 216 00:16:57,449 --> 00:16:59,385 but they don't have it anymore. 217 00:17:00,418 --> 00:17:03,155 I like tomato juice. 218 00:17:00,418 --> 00:17:03,155 [chuckles] 219 00:17:04,289 --> 00:17:06,358 Why don't you just eat more tomatoes? 220 00:17:06,391 --> 00:17:09,528 What's wrong with you? Eat more tomatoes! 221 00:17:09,561 --> 00:17:12,064 [woman] I'm just saying. 222 00:17:12,097 --> 00:17:15,400 We should buy a juicer. Then you could make your own tomato juice. 223 00:17:15,433 --> 00:17:17,669 What's the chances of that happening? 224 00:17:17,702 --> 00:17:20,505 It would just sit there beside a bowl of rotten tomatoes 225 00:17:20,538 --> 00:17:22,841 and a carton of tomato juice. 226 00:17:22,874 --> 00:17:25,511 Well, it wouldn't if you'd use it. 227 00:17:26,611 --> 00:17:28,447 Hold on till I get this right here. 228 00:17:28,480 --> 00:17:30,549 We're having some type of an argument 229 00:17:30,582 --> 00:17:34,486 about the frequency of me using a juicer we don't own. 230 00:17:34,519 --> 00:17:38,690 No, I'm just saying, if you had it, then you should use it. 231 00:17:38,723 --> 00:17:40,726 Aye, very good. 232 00:17:44,229 --> 00:17:46,632 What's gonna happen if I've got cancer? 233 00:17:49,567 --> 00:17:52,104 You don't know that you do. 234 00:17:52,137 --> 00:17:53,372 If. 235 00:17:54,339 --> 00:17:58,643 She said on a scale of one to five, it's three. 236 00:17:58,676 --> 00:18:02,214 I don't think she would have said that if it was gonna be five. 237 00:18:02,247 --> 00:18:04,749 Three is closer to five than it is to one. 238 00:18:04,782 --> 00:18:06,618 No, it isn't. 239 00:18:06,651 --> 00:18:11,389 It isn't, but in your head, three is closer to five than it is to one. 240 00:18:11,422 --> 00:18:14,192 I don't know why, but you know what I mean. It is. 241 00:18:14,225 --> 00:18:15,394 It isn't. 242 00:18:18,396 --> 00:18:21,233 Well, what's gonna happen if I've got cancer? 243 00:18:24,269 --> 00:18:25,904 There's no point in thinking like that now. 244 00:18:25,937 --> 00:18:29,141 You don't know. You can't do anything until you know. 245 00:18:29,174 --> 00:18:30,909 I know. 246 00:18:30,942 --> 00:18:32,511 I know I've got it. 247 00:18:32,544 --> 00:18:34,179 So you're a doctor now? 248 00:18:34,212 --> 00:18:36,915 You don't have to be a doctor to know things like that. 249 00:18:36,948 --> 00:18:38,817 Yes, you do. 250 00:18:36,948 --> 00:18:38,817 [sighs] 251 00:18:38,850 --> 00:18:43,288 I know that three is closer to five, and I know I've got breast cancer. 252 00:18:43,321 --> 00:18:46,558 Okay. Well, what are you gonna do then? 253 00:18:47,859 --> 00:18:49,628 I don't know. 254 00:18:49,661 --> 00:18:53,532 Correct. Because you can't do anything because you don't know. 255 00:18:54,399 --> 00:18:56,502 Well, that's not an answer. 256 00:18:59,671 --> 00:19:00,672 Joan... 257 00:19:04,242 --> 00:19:07,646 If you have breast cancer, which I don't think you do... 258 00:19:07,679 --> 00:19:10,649 if you have breast cancer, 259 00:19:10,682 --> 00:19:13,418 we will do whatever has to be done, 260 00:19:13,451 --> 00:19:14,920 the two of us. 261 00:19:14,953 --> 00:19:16,722 That's what's gonna happen. 262 00:19:29,234 --> 00:19:30,735 I have to go to the toilet. 263 00:19:30,768 --> 00:19:34,573 Don't be long. I might be called. 264 00:19:30,768 --> 00:19:34,573 I'll be as long as it takes. 265 00:19:56,494 --> 00:19:58,597 [man] Mrs. Joan Thompson? 266 00:20:06,771 --> 00:20:08,807 Joan? 267 00:20:06,771 --> 00:20:08,807 Yes. 268 00:20:09,874 --> 00:20:12,344 Sorry. I'm just waiting on my husband. 269 00:20:12,377 --> 00:20:14,479 He's at the toilet. 270 00:20:12,377 --> 00:20:14,479 Of course. 271 00:20:20,485 --> 00:20:21,687 There he is. 272 00:20:23,788 --> 00:20:25,957 [doctor] We've been able to look at your biopsy results, 273 00:20:25,990 --> 00:20:29,327 and I'm afraid it's not the news we were hoping for. 274 00:20:29,360 --> 00:20:31,263 It does show that there is cancer. 275 00:20:35,333 --> 00:20:37,702 We'll talk today about the road ahead. 276 00:20:37,735 --> 00:20:40,639 I think we should start chemotherapy in the next weeks. 277 00:20:41,372 --> 00:20:42,741 This would mean a first surgery 278 00:20:42,774 --> 00:20:45,010 to remove the lump and any lymph glands involved, 279 00:20:45,043 --> 00:20:46,712 followed by chemo. 280 00:20:47,745 --> 00:20:49,881 To reduce the risk of recurrence in your situation, 281 00:20:49,914 --> 00:20:53,785 we'll discuss a further surgery to remove both breasts. 282 00:20:53,818 --> 00:20:57,389 And, of course, your options for reconstruction. 283 00:21:37,061 --> 00:21:39,431 [man on TV, indistinct] 284 00:21:40,998 --> 00:21:42,534 [sighs] 285 00:21:43,968 --> 00:21:45,704 Joan. 286 00:21:47,004 --> 00:21:48,640 Joan! 287 00:21:50,041 --> 00:21:54,546 Come on, kid. No point in lying there. Come on. Let's get you up to bed. 288 00:21:54,579 --> 00:21:57,949 All right. Good man. 289 00:21:57,982 --> 00:22:00,585 All right. One, two, three. Hup! 290 00:22:02,053 --> 00:22:03,521 [Joan] Oh. 291 00:22:03,554 --> 00:22:04,956 [Tom] That's it. 292 00:22:35,486 --> 00:22:37,689 [gasps] 293 00:22:43,060 --> 00:22:45,097 [whispers] I love you. 294 00:22:58,176 --> 00:23:00,545 This is gonna sound strange. 295 00:23:01,179 --> 00:23:02,881 I'm sure it won't. 296 00:23:06,050 --> 00:23:09,521 I'm glad our Debbie isn't here to go through this. 297 00:23:13,524 --> 00:23:16,528 I mean, I miss her every day, but... 298 00:23:18,529 --> 00:23:20,632 this would break her heart. 299 00:23:26,237 --> 00:23:27,873 Look at me. 300 00:23:29,173 --> 00:23:30,675 Tom. 301 00:23:33,244 --> 00:23:35,647 Joan, look at me. 302 00:23:39,984 --> 00:23:42,053 Don't make me cry. 303 00:23:42,086 --> 00:23:45,657 There isn't a moment I won't be there with you. 304 00:23:46,557 --> 00:23:47,993 I know. 305 00:23:49,227 --> 00:23:50,795 I'm gonna torture you. 306 00:23:50,828 --> 00:23:52,797 You know that, don't you? 307 00:23:52,830 --> 00:23:55,934 You torture me now. 308 00:23:52,830 --> 00:23:55,934 Good. 309 00:23:55,967 --> 00:23:57,969 You know what to expect then. 310 00:23:59,704 --> 00:24:01,673 I'm frightened. 311 00:24:01,706 --> 00:24:03,642 I know, kid. I know. 312 00:24:05,643 --> 00:24:07,579 Every moment. 313 00:24:10,081 --> 00:24:12,818 Go on, eat your toast before it gets cold. 314 00:24:51,556 --> 00:24:54,792 We should've left earlier. It's an operation. You can't be late. 315 00:24:54,825 --> 00:24:56,194 We won't be late. 316 00:24:58,029 --> 00:25:01,900 -It's only a fish. -You still have to feed it. 317 00:25:03,200 --> 00:25:05,704 -Flush it. -Flush you. 318 00:25:06,304 --> 00:25:08,840 Very good. [chuckles] 319 00:25:12,209 --> 00:25:13,745 How long does it take? 320 00:25:13,778 --> 00:25:14,946 How long does what take? 321 00:25:14,979 --> 00:25:18,016 The operation. 322 00:25:14,979 --> 00:25:18,016 Oh, I don't know. 323 00:25:18,049 --> 00:25:18,950 Hours. 324 00:25:20,318 --> 00:25:22,754 You've got plenty of time to go to the grave. 325 00:25:22,787 --> 00:25:25,957 -I wanna be there when you get out. -Tom, it's her birthday. 326 00:25:25,990 --> 00:25:29,728 We always go to the grave on her birthday. You'll have time. 327 00:25:36,067 --> 00:25:37,735 Tell her I'm sorry I'm not there, 328 00:25:37,768 --> 00:25:39,704 but don't tell her why. 329 00:25:37,768 --> 00:25:39,704 Joan-- 330 00:25:39,737 --> 00:25:41,739 That's the way I have to think about it. 331 00:25:41,772 --> 00:25:43,241 Am I not allowed to do that? 332 00:25:49,080 --> 00:25:53,318 If I was there I'd say it, but I'm not there, so you can say it. 333 00:25:53,351 --> 00:25:56,020 If you were there, you wouldn't have to say you weren't there. 334 00:25:56,053 --> 00:25:57,922 Tom, everything isn't a joke! 335 00:25:57,955 --> 00:25:59,691 Joan, she's dead. 336 00:25:57,955 --> 00:25:59,691 I know. 337 00:25:59,724 --> 00:26:01,927 How can I not know that? 338 00:26:06,664 --> 00:26:09,367 Just do it, Tom, please. Just do it. 339 00:26:09,400 --> 00:26:10,802 Sorry. 340 00:26:12,269 --> 00:26:13,838 Of course I will. 341 00:26:14,739 --> 00:26:16,007 Sorry. 342 00:26:16,707 --> 00:26:19,244 It's all right. It's fine. 343 00:26:32,857 --> 00:26:34,993 Right. 344 00:26:32,857 --> 00:26:34,993 Yeah. 345 00:26:38,362 --> 00:26:41,699 It'll be over in no time. I'll be back here waiting for you. 346 00:26:41,732 --> 00:26:42,901 I know. 347 00:26:44,068 --> 00:26:47,339 [chuckles] 348 00:26:44,068 --> 00:26:47,339 All right, kid. 349 00:26:48,939 --> 00:26:51,142 See you soon. 350 00:26:48,939 --> 00:26:51,142 Yeah. 351 00:26:52,410 --> 00:26:54,145 Go on then. 352 00:27:02,019 --> 00:27:03,888 [female voice] Door closing. 353 00:27:26,777 --> 00:27:28,980 [sighs] Happy birthday, love. 354 00:27:30,448 --> 00:27:34,319 Your mother says she's sorry she can't be here since... 355 00:27:36,253 --> 00:27:37,455 [sighs] 356 00:27:37,488 --> 00:27:39,190 Look, Debbie, this is... 357 00:27:39,223 --> 00:27:42,193 this is... this is crazy. This... 358 00:27:43,127 --> 00:27:46,197 This isn't how I see you. You're not here. 359 00:27:47,398 --> 00:27:50,802 All I'm doing here is talking to a bit of stone. 360 00:27:55,206 --> 00:27:57,876 Your mother has breast cancer. 361 00:27:59,210 --> 00:28:01,946 She told me not to tell you that. 362 00:28:01,979 --> 00:28:03,181 And I can understand why. 363 00:28:03,214 --> 00:28:06,351 She... she doesn't want you to worry. 364 00:28:07,885 --> 00:28:12,223 But I imagine if you're looking down on us, you heard that conversation, so... 365 00:28:13,491 --> 00:28:17,962 It's just helping her get through it, that's all. 366 00:28:18,829 --> 00:28:21,166 Protecting you makes her stronger. 367 00:28:22,967 --> 00:28:24,736 She found out about a month ago. 368 00:28:24,769 --> 00:28:27,371 She's having an operation today to remove the lumps. 369 00:28:27,404 --> 00:28:31,943 So they'll know more after that, how serious the situation is. 370 00:28:31,976 --> 00:28:33,811 I mean, it's serious now. 371 00:28:33,844 --> 00:28:35,980 I mean, cancer is cancer. 372 00:28:41,986 --> 00:28:43,221 I just... 373 00:28:44,288 --> 00:28:47,125 I just can't tell her how frightened I am. 374 00:28:53,197 --> 00:28:56,234 Just got to continue on as normal. 375 00:28:57,368 --> 00:29:00,038 I suppose that's my job in all this. 376 00:29:01,138 --> 00:29:03,074 That's all you can do. 377 00:29:08,279 --> 00:29:11,015 I couldn't have the both of you gone. 378 00:29:12,383 --> 00:29:14,352 I'd just be... 379 00:29:15,286 --> 00:29:16,888 adrift. 380 00:29:20,024 --> 00:29:22,494 How do you say to someone, "Don't die"? 381 00:29:38,409 --> 00:29:41,479 Everything okay with you today? 382 00:29:38,409 --> 00:29:41,479 Yes, fine, thank you. 383 00:29:45,416 --> 00:29:47,285 [nurse] Everything is running to schedule, 384 00:29:47,318 --> 00:29:50,255 so you should all be brought down in order. 385 00:29:54,325 --> 00:29:56,994 You'd think they'd know which one they were going to work on 386 00:29:57,027 --> 00:29:58,930 without having to put a mark on it. 387 00:30:02,566 --> 00:30:04,268 I'm starving. 388 00:30:02,566 --> 00:30:04,268 So am I. 389 00:30:04,301 --> 00:30:05,736 Me too. 390 00:30:05,769 --> 00:30:09,574 They should be able to give you a tablet that makes you feel not starving. 391 00:30:09,607 --> 00:30:11,176 Or a vodka. 392 00:30:12,943 --> 00:30:16,347 Here we go. More stitches somewhere. 393 00:30:18,115 --> 00:30:21,085 [woman] Good luck. 394 00:30:18,115 --> 00:30:21,085 Good luck. 395 00:30:21,652 --> 00:30:24,055 Shouldn't be long now. 396 00:30:31,128 --> 00:30:33,197 Have you had chemo before? 397 00:30:33,230 --> 00:30:36,501 Twice. 398 00:30:33,230 --> 00:30:36,501 What's it like? 399 00:30:37,334 --> 00:30:39,370 Second one wasn't so bad. 400 00:30:40,170 --> 00:30:41,372 First one was rough. 401 00:30:43,073 --> 00:30:45,476 It doesn't last, and you get through it. 402 00:30:45,509 --> 00:30:48,379 Sometimes you feel like you won't, but you do. 403 00:30:50,281 --> 00:30:53,217 Take every tablet they give you and more. 404 00:30:53,250 --> 00:30:56,587 And always remember, when you're at your worst, 405 00:30:56,620 --> 00:30:59,257 what you're going through is better than the alternative. 406 00:31:05,129 --> 00:31:07,498 -Good luck. -And you. 407 00:32:57,708 --> 00:32:59,610 You smell lovely. 408 00:33:01,812 --> 00:33:04,215 I try my best. 409 00:33:20,264 --> 00:33:23,034 I was able to remove the whole tumor. 410 00:33:23,067 --> 00:33:25,336 Now, it wasn't two lumps. 411 00:33:25,369 --> 00:33:28,039 They were joined, so we consider that to be one lump. 412 00:33:28,072 --> 00:33:29,373 Right. 413 00:33:29,406 --> 00:33:32,376 Also, because the lymph nodes were involved, 414 00:33:32,409 --> 00:33:35,246 I had to remove 13 of those. 415 00:33:32,409 --> 00:33:35,246 Oh. 416 00:33:35,279 --> 00:33:38,783 And we'll also have to check it hasn't spread anywhere else. 417 00:33:38,816 --> 00:33:40,651 Where? 418 00:33:40,684 --> 00:33:43,154 We'll do a bone scan. 419 00:33:43,187 --> 00:33:48,793 We also need to check your liver and lungs with a CT scan. 420 00:33:48,826 --> 00:33:52,496 Was the lump the size that normally means it's spread? 421 00:33:52,529 --> 00:33:54,699 There is no normal here. 422 00:33:55,799 --> 00:33:57,301 We got it. 423 00:33:58,268 --> 00:34:00,338 That all looks good. 424 00:34:07,411 --> 00:34:08,679 What'd she say? 425 00:34:09,846 --> 00:34:14,285 Um, they got it all, but it was bigger than they thought. 426 00:34:14,318 --> 00:34:16,787 Bone scan? 427 00:34:14,318 --> 00:34:16,787 Yes. 428 00:34:16,820 --> 00:34:18,189 Oh. 429 00:34:19,690 --> 00:34:21,325 That's normal. 430 00:35:20,884 --> 00:35:23,254 [air pump whirs] 431 00:35:55,619 --> 00:35:57,655 [flushes] 432 00:36:07,231 --> 00:36:09,433 [sobs] 433 00:36:34,925 --> 00:36:36,460 Excuse me. 434 00:36:44,935 --> 00:36:47,872 Can you kill a goldfish by overfeeding them? 435 00:36:50,774 --> 00:36:52,343 I don't know. 436 00:36:53,377 --> 00:36:54,879 I've only started working here. 437 00:36:56,313 --> 00:36:57,582 I only know about rabbits. 438 00:36:58,615 --> 00:37:01,752 Are they old? 439 00:36:58,615 --> 00:37:01,752 No. 440 00:37:04,054 --> 00:37:07,458 I don't want the wife to know the one we had died. 441 00:37:09,593 --> 00:37:11,862 Was she fond of it? 442 00:37:11,895 --> 00:37:14,865 No. She hated it. 443 00:37:30,781 --> 00:37:32,683 You all right to walk? 444 00:37:30,781 --> 00:37:32,683 Fine. 445 00:37:32,716 --> 00:37:35,453 Bye. I'm on my way now. 446 00:37:32,716 --> 00:37:35,453 [woman] See you. 447 00:38:48,525 --> 00:38:49,927 Thank you. 448 00:38:58,902 --> 00:39:00,571 And what? 449 00:39:00,604 --> 00:39:03,974 You got everything means you got everything. 450 00:39:04,007 --> 00:39:08,078 No, they did a bone scan to see if the cancer had spread to my bones. 451 00:39:08,111 --> 00:39:09,713 And that was clear. 452 00:39:09,746 --> 00:39:11,815 Correct. But now you have to get an upper-body scan. 453 00:39:11,848 --> 00:39:12,816 Yes. 454 00:39:11,848 --> 00:39:12,816 Why? 455 00:39:12,849 --> 00:39:14,885 Because she wants to check my liver and my lungs. 456 00:39:14,918 --> 00:39:17,721 Why didn't she check your lungs when she was removing the lump? 457 00:39:17,754 --> 00:39:19,757 I don't know. She can't just put her hand in, 458 00:39:19,790 --> 00:39:21,558 move things out of the way and take a peek. 459 00:39:21,591 --> 00:39:24,628 How do you know they don't do that? Are you a doctor now? 460 00:39:24,661 --> 00:39:26,130 Stop talking stupid. 461 00:39:26,163 --> 00:39:28,866 Get cancer and end up knowing everything about medicine. 462 00:39:28,899 --> 00:39:31,435 All I know is there's something they're not telling us. 463 00:39:31,468 --> 00:39:34,071 There's nothing they're not telling us. Why are you doing this? 464 00:39:34,104 --> 00:39:36,774 Up to the damn hospital again and again and again. 465 00:39:36,807 --> 00:39:39,410 Well, you don't have to come with me all the time. 466 00:39:39,443 --> 00:39:42,079 What would you do on your own? 467 00:39:39,443 --> 00:39:42,079 I'd do what I always do. 468 00:39:42,112 --> 00:39:44,481 I sit and wait and then I get poked and prodded at. 469 00:39:44,514 --> 00:39:48,819 And what if something happens and I'm not there? No. 470 00:39:52,556 --> 00:39:53,991 Just drive the car. 471 00:39:54,024 --> 00:39:56,560 Aye, just drive the car. That's me. 472 00:39:57,093 --> 00:39:58,796 Just drive the car. 473 00:40:04,201 --> 00:40:05,936 [Joan] One. 474 00:40:05,969 --> 00:40:08,071 Two. 475 00:40:08,104 --> 00:40:10,441 Three. 476 00:40:10,474 --> 00:40:12,176 Four. 477 00:40:12,209 --> 00:40:14,178 Five. 478 00:40:14,211 --> 00:40:16,046 Six. 479 00:40:16,079 --> 00:40:17,081 Seven. 480 00:40:18,615 --> 00:40:20,184 Eight. 481 00:40:20,217 --> 00:40:22,486 Nine. 482 00:40:22,519 --> 00:40:24,054 Ten. 483 00:40:24,087 --> 00:40:25,689 Eleven. 484 00:40:25,722 --> 00:40:28,058 Twelve. 485 00:40:28,091 --> 00:40:29,660 Thirteen. 486 00:40:29,693 --> 00:40:31,896 Fourteen. 487 00:40:32,562 --> 00:40:34,164 Fifteen. 488 00:40:34,197 --> 00:40:36,099 Sixteen. 489 00:40:36,132 --> 00:40:38,202 Seventeen. 490 00:40:38,235 --> 00:40:40,070 Eighteen. 491 00:40:40,103 --> 00:40:41,939 Nineteen. 492 00:40:41,972 --> 00:40:43,974 Twenty. 493 00:40:44,841 --> 00:40:46,477 [on speaker] Twenty-one. 494 00:40:46,510 --> 00:40:48,245 Twenty-two. 495 00:40:48,278 --> 00:40:50,080 Twenty-three. 496 00:40:50,113 --> 00:40:52,149 Twenty-four. 497 00:40:58,121 --> 00:41:00,557 She's been away too long. That's not good. 498 00:41:00,590 --> 00:41:02,760 Not good what way? 499 00:41:03,793 --> 00:41:06,964 Because if it was good news, she'd be right back. 500 00:41:06,997 --> 00:41:11,702 So you think it's bad news and she doesn't wanna tell you and she's waiting out there? 501 00:41:11,735 --> 00:41:13,070 That's what I think. 502 00:41:13,103 --> 00:41:16,807 Oh, I think it's good news, so she's in no rush. 503 00:41:16,840 --> 00:41:18,876 No, if it was good news, you'd be in a rush. 504 00:41:18,909 --> 00:41:22,646 That's the whole point. You'd want to be telling the person. 505 00:41:22,679 --> 00:41:25,182 It'd be cruel if you had good news to wait to tell someone. 506 00:41:25,215 --> 00:41:28,852 It'd be kind if you had bad news to wait to tell them. 507 00:41:28,885 --> 00:41:31,021 She's been away too long. It's bad news. 508 00:41:31,054 --> 00:41:33,891 [doctor] Sorry. That took longer than I thought. 509 00:41:33,924 --> 00:41:36,126 I was called away to another patient. 510 00:41:40,130 --> 00:41:44,068 Well, good news. The scan is all clear. 511 00:41:48,905 --> 00:41:50,274 So what does that mean? 512 00:41:50,307 --> 00:41:54,177 It means we've removed the lump and the lymph nodes, 513 00:41:54,210 --> 00:41:56,580 and the cancer hasn't spread anywhere else. 514 00:41:56,613 --> 00:41:58,048 So, it's gone? 515 00:41:58,081 --> 00:42:01,018 As far as we're concerned, yes. 516 00:42:01,051 --> 00:42:04,021 And the next thing is to refer you to an oncologist 517 00:42:04,054 --> 00:42:06,757 to discuss chemotherapy and other therapies. 518 00:42:06,790 --> 00:42:09,693 Why chemo? You just said it was gone. 519 00:42:10,660 --> 00:42:13,630 There still might be tiny cancerous cells 520 00:42:13,663 --> 00:42:15,232 that we can't detect through scanning. 521 00:42:15,265 --> 00:42:20,170 So... when you said the cancer is gone, that may not be true? 522 00:42:20,203 --> 00:42:23,206 Tom, don't-- 523 00:42:20,203 --> 00:42:23,206 I just want to get everything clear. 524 00:42:23,239 --> 00:42:24,641 And so you should. 525 00:42:24,674 --> 00:42:26,944 The cancer that was there has been removed 526 00:42:26,977 --> 00:42:29,146 and it hasn't spread any further. 527 00:42:29,179 --> 00:42:32,850 And Joan is now ready for chemotherapy. 528 00:42:33,817 --> 00:42:36,220 Thank you, Doctor. That's very clear. Thank you. 529 00:42:42,359 --> 00:42:46,030 From now on, when we're at the hospital, I don't want you talking. 530 00:42:47,130 --> 00:42:50,233 If I didn't talk, we wouldn't know anything. 531 00:42:50,266 --> 00:42:53,137 We already knew. We'd already been told. 532 00:42:53,937 --> 00:42:55,205 It's just you being you. 533 00:42:55,839 --> 00:42:57,040 Cancer-free, she said. 534 00:42:57,073 --> 00:42:59,243 Yes. I knew what she meant. 535 00:43:01,144 --> 00:43:04,314 In situations like this, you have to be exact. 536 00:43:04,347 --> 00:43:08,285 Oh, I'm sorry, Tom. Are we in a hospital or are we in a courtroom? 537 00:43:09,219 --> 00:43:11,755 It's not black and white. The world's gray. 538 00:43:11,788 --> 00:43:13,991 It's nothing to do with black and white. 539 00:43:15,091 --> 00:43:17,728 Cancer-free is different from not cancer-free. 540 00:43:17,761 --> 00:43:20,898 Hmm. Are you cancer free? 541 00:43:21,865 --> 00:43:23,800 Very good. 542 00:43:23,833 --> 00:43:25,902 "As far as we know." 543 00:43:25,935 --> 00:43:28,238 I knew what she meant. 544 00:43:28,271 --> 00:43:30,841 So from now on, no more talk from you. 545 00:43:30,874 --> 00:43:32,876 It's to do with me anyway. I'll ask. 546 00:43:32,909 --> 00:43:34,778 It's to do with you. You'll ask. 547 00:43:34,811 --> 00:43:36,981 Yes. That was embarrassing. 548 00:43:37,414 --> 00:43:39,316 Embarrassing? 549 00:43:37,414 --> 00:43:39,316 Yes. 550 00:44:04,074 --> 00:44:06,143 You wanna sit here? 551 00:44:04,074 --> 00:44:06,143 Yeah. 552 00:44:21,191 --> 00:44:23,460 You see that man in the blue shirt over there? 553 00:44:23,493 --> 00:44:25,095 Yeah. 554 00:44:25,128 --> 00:44:28,265 I think he was our Debbie's teacher at primary school. 555 00:44:28,298 --> 00:44:30,334 Oh, right enough. 556 00:44:31,367 --> 00:44:34,004 Yes, arrogant. 557 00:44:31,367 --> 00:44:34,004 Yeah. 558 00:44:34,037 --> 00:44:37,174 I'm gonna talk to him. 559 00:44:34,037 --> 00:44:37,174 What for? 560 00:44:37,207 --> 00:44:40,210 What for? There's something the matter with you. 561 00:44:40,243 --> 00:44:43,947 Just to talk to him. Tell him who I am, that I recognized him. 562 00:44:43,980 --> 00:44:45,816 He looks alone. 563 00:44:49,352 --> 00:44:51,055 Sorry. 564 00:44:52,155 --> 00:44:56,760 I just saw you sitting here. I think I know you. 565 00:44:56,793 --> 00:45:00,731 Did you used to teach my daughter, Debbie Thompson, in primary school? 566 00:45:00,764 --> 00:45:02,332 I did. 567 00:45:03,266 --> 00:45:06,737 I was very sad to hear what happened to Debbie. 568 00:45:06,770 --> 00:45:08,438 Oh. 569 00:45:08,471 --> 00:45:09,506 It's Joan. 570 00:45:09,539 --> 00:45:11,141 Peter. 571 00:45:11,174 --> 00:45:13,076 Debbie was a delightful child. 572 00:45:13,109 --> 00:45:14,945 Pleasure to teach. 573 00:45:14,978 --> 00:45:18,815 Hmm. Do you still teach? 574 00:45:14,978 --> 00:45:18,815 Not at the moment. 575 00:45:18,848 --> 00:45:21,151 Oh, please, sit down. 576 00:45:23,153 --> 00:45:24,988 Are you on your own? 577 00:45:25,021 --> 00:45:27,891 Oh, my partner, Steve, is downstairs in the café. 578 00:45:27,924 --> 00:45:31,228 He gets very emotional. 579 00:45:31,261 --> 00:45:34,831 It's difficult for him. 580 00:45:31,261 --> 00:45:34,831 Hmm. I see that in my husband. 581 00:45:34,864 --> 00:45:38,335 Right. So you have the buzzer? 582 00:45:39,402 --> 00:45:42,472 Yes. Yeah. 583 00:45:39,402 --> 00:45:42,472 Right. 584 00:45:42,505 --> 00:45:44,407 Is this your first time here? 585 00:45:44,440 --> 00:45:46,109 No, second. 586 00:45:46,142 --> 00:45:48,345 How's your treatment going? 587 00:45:49,412 --> 00:45:51,882 I'm... I'm terminal. 588 00:45:52,582 --> 00:45:53,884 Oh, I'm sorry. 589 00:45:53,917 --> 00:45:56,086 Yeah. They say if I take the chemo, 590 00:45:56,119 --> 00:45:58,155 we'll have a while longer. 591 00:45:58,188 --> 00:46:00,257 What... What are you here for? 592 00:46:01,424 --> 00:46:03,127 Breast cancer. 593 00:46:06,329 --> 00:46:08,532 Has the chemo been difficult? 594 00:46:09,265 --> 00:46:11,001 Difficult enough. The nausea. 595 00:46:11,034 --> 00:46:14,171 That might not be difficult for you. Each treatment's different. 596 00:46:14,204 --> 00:46:16,073 They say that, anyway. 597 00:46:17,907 --> 00:46:22,112 I don't wanna lose my hair. No hair at my age, I think I'd look like a man. 598 00:46:22,145 --> 00:46:26,316 [chuckles] For me they said maybe, maybe not. 599 00:46:26,349 --> 00:46:28,819 I do not want to be buried bald. 600 00:46:28,852 --> 00:46:30,053 Actually, that's not true. 601 00:46:30,086 --> 00:46:31,588 Being buried bald isn't the issue. 602 00:46:31,621 --> 00:46:34,991 Lying in me coffin with the lid off it, bald, for all to see. 603 00:46:35,024 --> 00:46:40,063 Not that there will be anybody there, but that's not the point. Just in case. 604 00:46:41,297 --> 00:46:43,066 I think you'd look dignified. 605 00:46:43,933 --> 00:46:46,102 Dignified? No, horrified. 606 00:46:46,135 --> 00:46:48,272 [both chuckle] 607 00:46:49,172 --> 00:46:51,575 Well, you might not lose it. 608 00:46:51,608 --> 00:46:54,478 Whenever they say "you might," it means you will. 609 00:46:56,179 --> 00:47:00,217 We should get that printed on T-shirts. Wear them to the chemo sessions. 610 00:47:00,950 --> 00:47:03,987 [buzzer buzzing] 611 00:47:05,054 --> 00:47:08,258 Well... there we go. 612 00:47:09,959 --> 00:47:11,127 Okay. 613 00:47:09,959 --> 00:47:11,127 Well... 614 00:47:11,160 --> 00:47:13,296 It's lovely to meet you, Peter. 615 00:47:13,329 --> 00:47:15,365 I'm glad I came over to talk. 616 00:47:15,398 --> 00:47:17,367 Yeah. Lovely to meet you, Joan. 617 00:47:22,372 --> 00:47:24,174 I take it that's him then? 618 00:47:24,207 --> 00:47:27,344 Yeah. His name's Peter. 619 00:47:28,411 --> 00:47:31,248 Did he remember our Debbie? 620 00:47:28,411 --> 00:47:31,248 Of course he did. 621 00:47:31,281 --> 00:47:33,383 Talked of her really fondly. 622 00:47:34,150 --> 00:47:38,222 Is he still arrogant? 623 00:47:34,150 --> 00:47:38,222 Huh. No. 624 00:47:39,088 --> 00:47:41,258 He's got terminal cancer. 625 00:47:41,925 --> 00:47:43,193 Oh. 626 00:47:44,027 --> 00:47:46,230 That's not good. 627 00:47:44,027 --> 00:47:46,230 No. 628 00:47:47,230 --> 00:47:50,033 His partner, Steve, I think he said he was called, 629 00:47:50,066 --> 00:47:53,337 he sits downstairs. He can't come up here. 630 00:47:55,505 --> 00:47:56,773 Yeah. 631 00:47:56,807 --> 00:48:00,244 I can imagine that would be difficult for some people, all right. 632 00:48:03,980 --> 00:48:05,616 I hope I bump into him again. 633 00:48:06,282 --> 00:48:08,118 I'm sure you will. 634 00:48:08,151 --> 00:48:10,053 He doesn't look gay. 635 00:48:10,687 --> 00:48:12,222 No. 636 00:48:13,523 --> 00:48:16,159 But then you don't look... 637 00:48:13,523 --> 00:48:16,159 Easy, tiger. 638 00:48:17,293 --> 00:48:19,463 I was gonna say kind. 639 00:48:20,296 --> 00:48:23,100 There's not many of us left. 640 00:48:20,296 --> 00:48:23,100 Hmm. 641 00:48:24,968 --> 00:48:27,704 I couldn't say stupid because you do look stupid. 642 00:48:27,737 --> 00:48:31,408 Living with you too long has me looking like that. 643 00:48:35,178 --> 00:48:37,414 [buzzer buzzing] 644 00:48:35,178 --> 00:48:37,414 Oh! 645 00:48:37,447 --> 00:48:39,616 Here we go. 646 00:48:37,447 --> 00:48:39,616 Here we go. 647 00:49:57,627 --> 00:49:59,696 [retching] 648 00:50:01,097 --> 00:50:02,799 It's all right, it's all right. 649 00:50:02,832 --> 00:50:04,534 Oh, God. 650 00:50:05,735 --> 00:50:08,672 Is your head sore? Shall I get a cold cloth? 651 00:50:09,806 --> 00:50:11,475 No, I'm freezing. 652 00:50:12,275 --> 00:50:14,511 Blanket? Want a blanket? 653 00:50:14,544 --> 00:50:17,147 No, it'll be all right. It'll go in a minute. 654 00:50:18,614 --> 00:50:23,653 Shall I take this... this basin away and clean it out or is there more? 655 00:50:24,687 --> 00:50:27,657 There will be more, but you can clean it out anyway. 656 00:50:27,690 --> 00:50:30,527 Shall I go and just get another basin? 657 00:50:30,560 --> 00:50:33,163 No, just... just clean that one out. 658 00:50:33,196 --> 00:50:34,664 Right, right, right. 659 00:50:36,099 --> 00:50:39,302 [breathes heavily] 660 00:50:40,703 --> 00:50:43,774 [groans] 661 00:50:48,311 --> 00:50:51,748 [woman] Sarah has started a project at nearby Fillingham Court. 662 00:50:52,648 --> 00:50:54,684 She's teaching the residents about gardening 663 00:50:54,717 --> 00:50:58,288 to inspire them to make the most of their communal areas 664 00:50:58,321 --> 00:51:00,557 and brighten up their balconies. 665 00:51:00,590 --> 00:51:04,327 What rubbish bin goes out tonight? Brown or gray? 666 00:51:07,196 --> 00:51:08,765 I'm not sure. 667 00:51:10,133 --> 00:51:11,801 What went out last week? 668 00:51:11,834 --> 00:51:16,273 If I knew what went out last week, I'd know what one goes out tonight. 669 00:51:17,140 --> 00:51:18,642 Think it's gray. 670 00:51:20,309 --> 00:51:22,479 Just look what the neighbors put out. 671 00:51:24,213 --> 00:51:25,782 I know it's summer, but what's the point 672 00:51:25,815 --> 00:51:28,384 of having a bin for garden waste during the winter 673 00:51:28,417 --> 00:51:30,353 when there isn't any garden waste? 674 00:51:30,386 --> 00:51:31,588 Don't know. 675 00:51:32,488 --> 00:51:33,790 Well, you should know. 676 00:51:33,823 --> 00:51:36,359 That could be vital information at some point. 677 00:51:37,226 --> 00:51:40,497 Vital? Really? 678 00:51:37,226 --> 00:51:40,497 Yes, Joan. Vital. 679 00:51:40,530 --> 00:51:43,467 Why don't you go for a walk? 680 00:51:40,530 --> 00:51:43,467 No. 681 00:51:44,534 --> 00:51:46,469 No, I'm staying. Watch TV. 682 00:51:46,502 --> 00:51:48,738 I haven't numbed my brain enough today. 683 00:51:52,208 --> 00:51:53,376 Hmm. 684 00:52:30,413 --> 00:52:33,617 All right? 685 00:52:30,413 --> 00:52:33,617 It's coming out in clumps now. 686 00:52:36,519 --> 00:52:38,388 What do you want to do? 687 00:52:39,689 --> 00:52:41,925 I don't know. 688 00:52:39,689 --> 00:52:41,925 Look, there's no... 689 00:52:41,958 --> 00:52:46,563 No, I know. 690 00:52:41,958 --> 00:52:46,563 I'll do it. Do you want me to do it? 691 00:52:46,996 --> 00:52:49,532 [laughs] 692 00:52:49,565 --> 00:52:51,868 What? Where's the scissors? 693 00:52:54,537 --> 00:52:56,406 In the drawer. 694 00:52:54,537 --> 00:52:56,406 Right. 695 00:53:02,612 --> 00:53:04,447 Do you wanna stand or sit? 696 00:53:04,480 --> 00:53:08,385 When have you ever seen anyone getting their hair cut standing up? 697 00:53:10,319 --> 00:53:12,522 [sighs] 698 00:53:16,392 --> 00:53:18,595 [chuckles] 699 00:53:27,637 --> 00:53:28,772 Okay? 700 00:53:29,805 --> 00:53:30,840 Yeah. 701 00:53:40,716 --> 00:53:42,685 [chuckles] 702 00:53:42,718 --> 00:53:44,487 Stop. 703 00:53:50,593 --> 00:53:53,796 So, what do you and your hairdresser talk about? 704 00:53:53,829 --> 00:53:55,832 You and what an idiot you are. 705 00:53:55,865 --> 00:53:58,802 An idiot who has a pair of scissors in his hand. 706 00:53:59,669 --> 00:54:01,904 Any particular style today, madam? 707 00:54:01,937 --> 00:54:04,241 [chuckles] Beehive. 708 00:54:04,774 --> 00:54:07,310 Showing your age there, kid. 709 00:54:07,343 --> 00:54:09,512 A beehive it is. 710 00:55:15,544 --> 00:55:18,515 Ta-da! 711 00:55:15,544 --> 00:55:18,515 [chuckles] 712 00:55:21,751 --> 00:55:23,686 What do you think? 713 00:55:23,719 --> 00:55:25,755 You look beautiful. 714 00:55:26,789 --> 00:55:29,693 But then I never really liked your hair to begin with. 715 00:55:33,629 --> 00:55:35,932 It feels weird. 716 00:55:35,965 --> 00:55:37,633 You're a star, kid. 717 00:55:37,666 --> 00:55:39,736 Absolute star. 718 00:56:28,684 --> 00:56:31,554 [TV playing, indistinct] 719 00:56:33,889 --> 00:56:36,926 [announcer speaking, indistinct] 720 00:56:42,665 --> 00:56:45,034 [breathing heavily] 721 00:57:17,266 --> 00:57:19,669 [TV continues, indistinct] 722 00:57:28,110 --> 00:57:30,814 [breathing heavily] 723 00:57:41,891 --> 00:57:44,093 [TV continues, indistinct] 724 00:57:57,773 --> 00:57:59,709 Did you write it down? 725 00:57:57,773 --> 00:57:59,709 No. 726 00:57:59,742 --> 00:58:01,844 What do you mean, no? 727 00:58:01,877 --> 00:58:04,580 I gave you a notebook and a pen especially for that. 728 00:58:04,613 --> 00:58:06,816 I didn't write it down. 729 00:58:08,751 --> 00:58:11,754 So, you don't know what tablet to take? 730 00:58:11,787 --> 00:58:13,055 No. Just guess. 731 00:58:13,088 --> 00:58:15,157 You can't guess, Joan. They're too strong. 732 00:58:15,190 --> 00:58:18,528 Tom, please. The pain in my legs and feet is... 733 00:58:18,561 --> 00:58:21,731 I'm in agony. Just give me a tablet. It's one of three. 734 00:58:21,764 --> 00:58:23,699 Just pick one. I don't care which. 735 00:58:23,732 --> 00:58:26,168 You were told to write this down. 736 00:58:23,732 --> 00:58:26,168 Oh, what? 737 00:58:26,201 --> 00:58:28,271 Because I didn't, you're gonna punish me? 738 00:58:28,304 --> 00:58:32,141 Whose pain is this? Who's going through this? Me or you? 739 00:58:32,174 --> 00:58:36,012 You sit downstairs drinking beer while I'm up here in pain. 740 00:58:36,045 --> 00:58:38,281 Excuse me. Everything you need, I get. 741 00:58:38,314 --> 00:58:42,018 Well, get me a tablet. 742 00:58:38,314 --> 00:58:42,018 I don't know which one. 743 00:58:42,051 --> 00:58:44,921 Don't give me that "poor me" garbage. Did I give you the cancer? 744 00:58:44,954 --> 00:58:46,756 This isn't about cancer. This is about you. 745 00:58:46,789 --> 00:58:49,759 You never do anything for me until you've sorted yourself out. 746 00:58:49,792 --> 00:58:51,160 That right? 747 00:58:49,792 --> 00:58:51,160 Yes. 748 00:58:51,193 --> 00:58:53,229 I didn't want to fill out your silly little notepad 749 00:58:53,262 --> 00:58:55,731 because I didn't feel like it, all right? 750 00:58:55,764 --> 00:58:58,034 No! Because you like all this. 751 00:58:58,067 --> 00:59:00,169 You'd rather be worse than better. 752 00:59:00,202 --> 00:59:01,370 It's in your nature. 753 00:59:01,403 --> 00:59:04,640 It's all, "Look at me. This was always gonna happen to me! 754 00:59:04,673 --> 00:59:07,277 My daughter was killed! Look at me!" 755 00:59:09,979 --> 00:59:11,714 I hate you, you know that? 756 00:59:11,747 --> 00:59:15,051 Oh, I know it, all right. It's there underneath all the time. 757 00:59:15,084 --> 00:59:18,654 Here, there's the box. You wanna take a tablet? Take one. 758 00:59:18,687 --> 00:59:19,922 Just leave me alone. 759 00:59:19,955 --> 00:59:22,124 On top of everything I have to deal with you. 760 00:59:22,157 --> 00:59:23,893 We're both going through this. 761 00:59:23,926 --> 00:59:27,096 No, we're not! Tom, we're not! I'm going through it! 762 00:59:28,964 --> 00:59:31,867 You've just gotta cope with things, cope with stuff. 763 00:59:31,900 --> 00:59:34,670 I had the cancer. I'm going through chemo. 764 00:59:34,703 --> 00:59:37,240 I need to have a double-mastectomy. 765 00:59:40,376 --> 00:59:42,712 I'm doing my best here! 766 00:59:42,745 --> 00:59:44,881 No, you're not! 767 00:59:42,745 --> 00:59:44,881 [pills clatter] 768 01:00:17,780 --> 01:00:19,215 Hi. 769 01:00:20,149 --> 01:00:21,284 Hi. 770 01:00:23,852 --> 01:00:25,755 Is this your first session? 771 01:00:25,788 --> 01:00:27,723 Yes. 772 01:00:27,756 --> 01:00:30,860 Don't be worried about all the goings-on here. You get used to it. 773 01:00:30,893 --> 01:00:33,663 You think you won't, but you do. 774 01:00:33,696 --> 01:00:37,233 I always think it's like a busy train station or something. 775 01:00:38,233 --> 01:00:39,268 Yeah. 776 01:00:40,769 --> 01:00:42,872 How many sessions have you to do? 777 01:00:42,905 --> 01:00:45,408 Six. 778 01:00:42,905 --> 01:00:45,408 Oh. 779 01:00:45,441 --> 01:00:48,778 -Breast cancer. -Same here. 780 01:00:49,812 --> 01:00:51,047 I hear it's hard. 781 01:00:51,080 --> 01:00:54,117 Well, it can be, but you get through it. 782 01:00:55,250 --> 01:00:58,221 Take all the painkillers you can get your hands on. 783 01:00:59,188 --> 01:01:02,959 Once the pain kicks in, it's hard to get rid of. 784 01:01:07,496 --> 01:01:09,932 [nurse] Now, are we ready? 785 01:01:18,107 --> 01:01:20,242 [Peter] Yeah, I like it. It suits you. 786 01:01:20,275 --> 01:01:21,977 No, it doesn't. 787 01:01:22,010 --> 01:01:23,846 No, it doesn't. 788 01:01:23,879 --> 01:01:28,050 I went to the hairdresser's and she cut it. I think it looks worse. 789 01:01:28,083 --> 01:01:30,019 It's not even the right color. 790 01:01:30,986 --> 01:01:34,056 What does Tom think of it? 791 01:01:30,986 --> 01:01:34,056 Oh, I don't know. 792 01:01:34,089 --> 01:01:38,327 I mean, he wouldn't say that he didn't like it, 793 01:01:38,360 --> 01:01:40,263 but you know... 794 01:01:41,830 --> 01:01:44,066 He's at the end of his tether. 795 01:01:44,099 --> 01:01:45,968 I can see it in him. 796 01:01:46,969 --> 01:01:49,405 Oh, but to hell with him, so am I. 797 01:01:49,438 --> 01:01:51,907 Too right. 798 01:01:49,438 --> 01:01:51,907 [chuckles] 799 01:01:51,940 --> 01:01:54,343 We fought the other night. 800 01:01:51,940 --> 01:01:54,343 Hmm? 801 01:01:54,376 --> 01:01:58,047 Oh, well, you need a blowout, don't you? 802 01:01:59,014 --> 01:02:01,217 Steve won't do it, not that he's that type, 803 01:02:01,250 --> 01:02:04,854 but even so, God, he won't offend me now. 804 01:02:05,988 --> 01:02:07,923 Poor man. 805 01:02:07,956 --> 01:02:10,092 He looks frightened, you know. 806 01:02:10,125 --> 01:02:12,228 More frightened of me dying than I am. 807 01:02:12,261 --> 01:02:16,032 He won't even talk to me about stopping chemo. 808 01:02:16,899 --> 01:02:19,001 Are you going to? 809 01:02:19,034 --> 01:02:20,837 Well, I'm thinking about it. 810 01:02:21,870 --> 01:02:25,274 I can handle it, but what's the point of even doing that, 811 01:02:25,307 --> 01:02:28,778 if I'm gonna die the same way no matter what? 812 01:02:28,811 --> 01:02:32,281 Steve thinks I'd be depriving him of time spent together. 813 01:02:35,951 --> 01:02:38,087 What would you do? 814 01:02:40,956 --> 01:02:41,991 Don't know. 815 01:02:42,024 --> 01:02:44,460 You must've thought about it 816 01:02:45,227 --> 01:02:47,263 when you heard about the cancer. 817 01:02:49,965 --> 01:02:51,434 Yeah, I... 818 01:02:52,868 --> 01:02:55,071 Yeah, I thought that... 819 01:02:56,438 --> 01:02:58,307 if it came to that... 820 01:02:59,341 --> 01:03:01,277 no matter how long you'd been together, 821 01:03:01,310 --> 01:03:03,980 no matter how much you love each other... 822 01:03:05,514 --> 01:03:09,418 it would have to be my decision and my decision alone. 823 01:03:12,254 --> 01:03:14,457 I cried when I thought that. 824 01:03:17,125 --> 01:03:20,029 You know, that we're all just really... 825 01:03:22,064 --> 01:03:23,933 just on our own. 826 01:03:32,941 --> 01:03:35,077 [exhales] 827 01:03:37,279 --> 01:03:38,180 Too hot. 828 01:03:38,213 --> 01:03:41,851 Jesus Christ. Tea cozy? 829 01:03:41,884 --> 01:03:44,086 [chuckles] 830 01:03:41,884 --> 01:03:44,086 No! 831 01:03:47,222 --> 01:03:48,357 Oh... 832 01:03:49,491 --> 01:03:51,360 [laughs] 833 01:04:18,253 --> 01:04:21,457 You'd think I'd give these up, wouldn't you? 834 01:04:24,259 --> 01:04:27,296 But then what would be the point? 835 01:04:34,670 --> 01:04:36,205 Have you somebody in here? 836 01:04:39,174 --> 01:04:41,377 My wife. She's got breast cancer. 837 01:04:41,410 --> 01:04:43,613 She's getting chemo, you know. 838 01:04:52,187 --> 01:04:54,457 They're good in here. 839 01:04:55,958 --> 01:04:57,259 They can't do anything for me, 840 01:04:57,292 --> 01:05:00,196 but that doesn't mean to say they're not good. 841 01:05:00,996 --> 01:05:04,100 Your wife will be well looked after. 842 01:05:05,033 --> 01:05:06,402 Yes. 843 01:05:11,573 --> 01:05:13,409 My wife's dead. 844 01:05:17,245 --> 01:05:19,282 It's just as well. 845 01:05:30,692 --> 01:05:33,195 I can't do this, Tom. 846 01:05:36,198 --> 01:05:38,234 I can't take any more. 847 01:05:39,201 --> 01:05:41,604 It's all right, kid. It's all right. 848 01:05:44,339 --> 01:05:46,509 I can't do it, Tom. 849 01:05:53,048 --> 01:05:54,183 Look at me. 850 01:05:54,216 --> 01:05:56,385 I don't want to look at you. 851 01:06:00,655 --> 01:06:02,057 You're nearly there, pet. 852 01:06:02,090 --> 01:06:04,393 I don't want to be nearly there, Tom. 853 01:06:05,327 --> 01:06:06,662 I don't wanna be nearly there. 854 01:06:06,695 --> 01:06:10,099 I want it to be over. I've had enough. 855 01:06:17,339 --> 01:06:20,509 You know... you know the way... 856 01:06:22,244 --> 01:06:24,447 I always said I'd do the marathon... 857 01:06:25,680 --> 01:06:27,583 and never did it? 858 01:06:27,616 --> 01:06:29,218 Useless. 859 01:06:29,251 --> 01:06:30,653 I'm useless. 860 01:06:32,120 --> 01:06:34,156 I stand near the finish line... 861 01:06:35,090 --> 01:06:37,426 watching the people cross that line... 862 01:06:38,260 --> 01:06:40,196 one by one. 863 01:06:40,829 --> 01:06:42,698 Makes me wanna cry. 864 01:06:45,667 --> 01:06:47,269 But it's... 865 01:06:48,270 --> 01:06:51,140 it's normal people that are doing it. 866 01:06:52,774 --> 01:06:54,543 I never did it. 867 01:06:57,145 --> 01:06:58,714 You are doing it. 868 01:07:00,782 --> 01:07:03,519 You're coming up to the finish line, Joan. 869 01:07:04,686 --> 01:07:06,589 You're nearly there, kid. 870 01:07:08,723 --> 01:07:10,593 You're gonna do it. 871 01:08:06,515 --> 01:08:09,452 I've been thinking we should do something to the house. 872 01:08:10,752 --> 01:08:11,754 Like what? 873 01:08:12,854 --> 01:08:14,556 I don't know. 874 01:08:14,589 --> 01:08:16,592 Bedroom, kitchen. I don't know, just a change. 875 01:08:16,625 --> 01:08:19,161 They don't need change, Joan. 876 01:08:19,194 --> 01:08:21,230 Tom, we haven't decorated since... 877 01:08:21,263 --> 01:08:23,532 And what? There's only you and me in it. 878 01:08:23,565 --> 01:08:25,467 It doesn't mean it shouldn't look well. 879 01:08:25,500 --> 01:08:27,836 It looks well enough. 880 01:08:27,869 --> 01:08:29,505 We're doing the bedroom. 881 01:08:29,538 --> 01:08:31,240 Right. Not the kitchen? 882 01:08:32,240 --> 01:08:33,509 You think we should do the kitchen? 883 01:08:33,542 --> 01:08:35,144 I don't think we should do either. 884 01:08:35,177 --> 01:08:37,813 Right, we're doing the bedroom. Something bright. 885 01:08:37,846 --> 01:08:39,248 Aye. 886 01:08:40,882 --> 01:08:44,720 What are we doing after this? Do you wanna go for a drink somewhere? 887 01:08:45,620 --> 01:08:48,724 No, we'll just go up to the bedroom. 888 01:08:49,691 --> 01:08:52,261 I'll nip over, get some wine across the road. 889 01:08:52,294 --> 01:08:53,529 It'll be cheaper. 890 01:08:53,562 --> 01:08:55,764 Now that we're saving for an orange bedroom. 891 01:08:56,798 --> 01:08:59,468 We don't have to have any drink at all. 892 01:08:59,501 --> 01:09:01,670 Aye, very good. 893 01:09:02,637 --> 01:09:04,273 Don't be getting a lot of drink. 894 01:09:04,306 --> 01:09:05,908 I wasn't gonna get a lot. 895 01:09:05,941 --> 01:09:07,342 Don't start. 896 01:09:07,375 --> 01:09:10,479 I know, but, I mean, we're here doing this. 897 01:09:10,512 --> 01:09:12,681 We're having a good time. 898 01:09:10,512 --> 01:09:12,681 Yes. 899 01:09:55,690 --> 01:09:57,860 Are you going to miss these? 900 01:10:00,862 --> 01:10:02,798 What? Really? 901 01:10:02,831 --> 01:10:05,567 Now? 902 01:10:02,831 --> 01:10:05,567 Yes, now. 903 01:10:05,600 --> 01:10:06,702 No. 904 01:10:07,736 --> 01:10:08,537 No? 905 01:10:08,570 --> 01:10:12,474 What, is this a trick question? 906 01:10:08,570 --> 01:10:12,474 No. 907 01:10:15,377 --> 01:10:17,580 Are you gonna miss them? 908 01:10:26,855 --> 01:10:28,424 No. 909 01:10:30,358 --> 01:10:32,327 You'll still have something left. 910 01:10:32,360 --> 01:10:33,629 I know. 911 01:10:36,364 --> 01:10:39,635 But, I mean, are you gonna miss them? 912 01:10:44,072 --> 01:10:45,474 Yes. 913 01:10:48,710 --> 01:10:49,945 Good man. 914 01:11:57,479 --> 01:11:59,514 You okay? 915 01:11:57,479 --> 01:11:59,514 Yeah. 916 01:11:59,547 --> 01:12:01,850 What's the pain like today? 917 01:11:59,547 --> 01:12:01,850 Same. 918 01:12:02,717 --> 01:12:05,587 You getting more painkillers? 919 01:12:02,717 --> 01:12:05,587 Yeah. 920 01:12:07,021 --> 01:12:08,657 Did you sleep? 921 01:12:10,024 --> 01:12:11,593 Off and on. 922 01:12:12,727 --> 01:12:15,464 It's difficult to sleep here, noise of the place. 923 01:12:16,464 --> 01:12:20,435 How long did they say you'd be in for? 924 01:12:16,464 --> 01:12:20,435 At least a week. 925 01:12:20,468 --> 01:12:26,508 Got to make sure that the wound's clean and under my arms are all drained. 926 01:12:27,409 --> 01:12:29,878 Do you need me to bring anything up? 927 01:12:29,911 --> 01:12:31,079 Yeah. 928 01:12:31,112 --> 01:12:34,449 Can you go into the top drawer and get my blue nightdress? 929 01:12:34,482 --> 01:12:35,851 Make sure it's the blue one. 930 01:12:35,884 --> 01:12:38,754 The other one's a bit grubby. And some knickers. 931 01:12:41,022 --> 01:12:42,858 Any type? 932 01:12:42,891 --> 01:12:44,626 Crotchless? 933 01:12:47,462 --> 01:12:49,765 Don't make me laugh. It hurts. 934 01:12:50,899 --> 01:12:52,167 Not the crotchless then? 935 01:12:52,200 --> 01:12:54,169 Oh, Tom! 936 01:12:54,202 --> 01:12:56,471 Sturdy gusset? 937 01:12:56,504 --> 01:12:58,707 Sturdy gusset. 938 01:13:00,909 --> 01:13:03,112 Couple of facecloths as well. 939 01:13:03,945 --> 01:13:04,913 Anything else? 940 01:13:04,946 --> 01:13:07,850 Any other things that aren't sexually romantic? 941 01:13:08,783 --> 01:13:11,920 No, just the sexually romantic stuff. 942 01:13:16,124 --> 01:13:17,526 Hi. 943 01:13:18,059 --> 01:13:19,528 Tom, this is Peter. 944 01:13:19,561 --> 01:13:21,029 [Tom] Yes, of course. 945 01:13:19,561 --> 01:13:21,029 [Joan] I told you. 946 01:13:21,062 --> 01:13:24,065 Hi. Good to meet you. 947 01:13:21,062 --> 01:13:24,065 You too. 948 01:13:24,098 --> 01:13:28,103 I'm gonna go down to the café. Let you two have a chat. 949 01:13:31,239 --> 01:13:33,175 Well, how about you, missus? 950 01:13:33,208 --> 01:13:37,779 They've removed both of my breasts and they've reconstructed them. 951 01:13:37,812 --> 01:13:41,450 They pulled up some muscle from my stomach to do it. 952 01:13:41,483 --> 01:13:44,820 I've got this great big scar across here. It's like a zip. 953 01:13:46,187 --> 01:13:48,557 Well, at least it's over. 954 01:13:51,559 --> 01:13:54,930 You know, at the start of all this, I had this feeling 955 01:13:54,963 --> 01:13:58,600 that if I can get through it all, that the experience of that, 956 01:13:58,633 --> 01:14:00,869 you know, just going through it, 957 01:14:00,902 --> 01:14:03,105 it would somehow change me. 958 01:14:05,607 --> 01:14:07,709 I don't think it has. 959 01:14:09,744 --> 01:14:11,947 I don't think I want it to. 960 01:14:50,752 --> 01:14:53,188 You're Tom. Joan's husband? 961 01:14:58,793 --> 01:15:01,730 Peter is with Joan up in the ward. 962 01:15:01,763 --> 01:15:03,232 Oh, right, yeah. 963 01:15:04,766 --> 01:15:09,004 I heard she was in for an operation. I hope it all went well. 964 01:15:09,037 --> 01:15:12,007 In doctor speak, as well as can be expected. 965 01:15:13,207 --> 01:15:15,978 I know. It's just never a straight answer. 966 01:15:17,779 --> 01:15:20,048 It's good that she got through it. 967 01:15:17,779 --> 01:15:20,048 Yeah. 968 01:15:22,183 --> 01:15:25,086 Peter's in because his blood count is down. 969 01:15:25,119 --> 01:15:27,656 Aye, just keeping an eye on him. 970 01:15:32,126 --> 01:15:33,795 He's dying. 971 01:15:34,662 --> 01:15:35,898 You know that? 972 01:15:38,132 --> 01:15:39,668 Yes. 973 01:15:41,636 --> 01:15:43,238 I've stopped the chemo. 974 01:15:43,271 --> 01:15:47,576 I knew I was going to do it. I just took me time working round to it. 975 01:15:48,710 --> 01:15:52,214 I told Steve. I didn't talk to him about it. I told him. 976 01:15:53,815 --> 01:15:55,717 That didn't go down well. 977 01:15:57,385 --> 01:15:59,121 He'll come round. 978 01:15:59,988 --> 01:16:03,225 Well, he'll have to. It's all about time now. 979 01:16:10,732 --> 01:16:13,068 He used to teach my daughter. 980 01:16:14,402 --> 01:16:15,971 Aye. He said. 981 01:16:16,938 --> 01:16:19,007 I'm sorry to hear what happened. 982 01:16:19,741 --> 01:16:21,076 Yeah. 983 01:16:22,744 --> 01:16:24,713 That can't be easy. 984 01:16:26,114 --> 01:16:27,249 No. 985 01:16:28,383 --> 01:16:31,119 [Joan] Have you planned out what you're gonna do? 986 01:16:31,886 --> 01:16:33,355 Do nothing. 987 01:16:33,388 --> 01:16:36,057 You know, spend time together. I don't want to do things. 988 01:16:36,090 --> 01:16:37,959 I've spent me whole life doing things. 989 01:16:37,992 --> 01:16:41,096 Now I want to do absolutely nothing. 990 01:16:44,098 --> 01:16:47,402 Yeah, when we lost Debbie, I think Tom felt like that. 991 01:16:47,435 --> 01:16:50,138 Just gave up work and... 992 01:16:51,406 --> 01:16:53,909 stopped, really. Well... 993 01:16:54,876 --> 01:16:56,812 I suppose I did too. 994 01:16:58,880 --> 01:17:00,882 I understand that. 995 01:17:07,055 --> 01:17:09,257 I don't know what I'm gonna do. 996 01:17:11,826 --> 01:17:14,696 I don't think anyone knows that. 997 01:17:14,729 --> 01:17:18,767 You try not to think about it, but it's there all the time. 998 01:17:23,071 --> 01:17:24,206 Maybe... 999 01:17:25,039 --> 01:17:26,875 you don't do anything. 1000 01:17:28,376 --> 01:17:33,948 Look... I don't know if this is any good, but I'll say it anyway. 1001 01:17:33,981 --> 01:17:36,918 My daughter, Debbie, was taken away from us suddenly. 1002 01:17:36,951 --> 01:17:38,753 I can't explain it. 1003 01:17:38,786 --> 01:17:40,288 It's beyond me. 1004 01:17:41,889 --> 01:17:44,126 But if I'd have known she was going to die... 1005 01:17:45,093 --> 01:17:49,131 all I would've done was to spend time with her. 1006 01:17:53,935 --> 01:17:56,038 I don't want him to die. 1007 01:18:00,208 --> 01:18:01,910 I know. 1008 01:18:05,313 --> 01:18:06,882 I know. 1009 01:18:29,437 --> 01:18:31,840 Oh, thank you. 1010 01:18:39,247 --> 01:18:41,383 Here, fix this tie, will you? 1011 01:18:42,283 --> 01:18:44,219 A grown man can't fix his own tie. 1012 01:18:44,252 --> 01:18:46,821 What's that about? 1013 01:18:44,252 --> 01:18:46,821 [chuckles] 1014 01:18:46,854 --> 01:18:48,189 You look well, kid. 1015 01:18:48,222 --> 01:18:50,926 -Thank you. -Are you not meant to say that back? 1016 01:18:51,526 --> 01:18:52,761 You look well. 1017 01:18:52,794 --> 01:18:54,129 Too late. 1018 01:18:58,866 --> 01:19:01,302 We'll just stay for the funeral, okay? 1019 01:19:01,335 --> 01:19:02,837 I'm tired. 1020 01:19:02,870 --> 01:19:05,106 Joan, if you don't want to go... 1021 01:19:05,139 --> 01:19:07,242 Oh, no, I do want to go. 1022 01:19:07,275 --> 01:19:09,844 But I don't want to get involved in anything afterwards. 1023 01:19:09,877 --> 01:19:12,013 Are you in pain? 1024 01:19:09,877 --> 01:19:12,013 Yeah, a bit. 1025 01:19:12,046 --> 01:19:15,116 Take another tablet. 1026 01:19:12,046 --> 01:19:15,116 Oh, I will later. 1027 01:19:15,149 --> 01:19:18,053 I'm trying to hold off. I'm taking too many as it is. 1028 01:19:19,187 --> 01:19:22,057 -Do you want a cup of tea? -Yes, please. 1029 01:19:42,276 --> 01:19:46,047 [Steve] The last few weeks of Peter and I's time together was... 1030 01:19:47,381 --> 01:19:49,217 was beautiful. 1031 01:19:49,250 --> 01:19:53,922 I've never watched so much rubbish TV in my life. 1032 01:19:53,955 --> 01:19:55,523 [scattered chuckles] 1033 01:19:55,556 --> 01:19:57,926 It's brilliant, rubbish TV. 1034 01:19:59,927 --> 01:20:02,130 All we did was sit together. 1035 01:20:03,097 --> 01:20:05,267 That's all we needed to do. 1036 01:20:07,535 --> 01:20:11,139 I've never loved any person as much as I loved that man. 1037 01:20:14,342 --> 01:20:18,313 He made me face the world and... 1038 01:20:20,414 --> 01:20:23,285 I will miss him more than he will ever know. 1039 01:20:26,087 --> 01:20:28,056 Peter, I love you. 1040 01:20:30,358 --> 01:20:34,095 I don't know what I'm gonna do without you, but... 1041 01:20:34,128 --> 01:20:39,167 I do know that you're still forever the best part of me. 1042 01:20:58,452 --> 01:21:01,623 Hey, that's too many. Can you not just get a few? 1043 01:21:01,656 --> 01:21:05,026 No. You need more than a few. 1044 01:21:01,656 --> 01:21:05,026 There's only the two of us. 1045 01:21:05,059 --> 01:21:07,095 You can't just cook a few Brussels sprouts. 1046 01:21:07,128 --> 01:21:08,663 Why not? 1047 01:21:08,696 --> 01:21:12,367 Oh, I don't know. You just can't. 1048 01:21:08,696 --> 01:21:12,367 Why do we even have to get any? 1049 01:21:12,400 --> 01:21:14,502 I don't even eat them. 1050 01:21:12,400 --> 01:21:14,502 I do. 1051 01:21:14,535 --> 01:21:17,171 Once a year. You eat them once a year. 1052 01:21:17,204 --> 01:21:19,207 Well, that's why it's important to get them. 1053 01:21:19,240 --> 01:21:20,642 Anyway, what do you care? 1054 01:21:20,675 --> 01:21:22,377 They stink the place up. 1055 01:21:22,410 --> 01:21:25,313 You stink the place up. 1056 01:21:22,410 --> 01:21:25,313 Very good. 1057 01:21:25,346 --> 01:21:28,116 I'm gonna head around here and get some beer. 1058 01:21:28,149 --> 01:21:31,219 Have we enough wine? 1059 01:21:28,149 --> 01:21:31,219 Yes, plenty of wine. 1060 01:21:31,252 --> 01:21:34,389 Running out over Christmas would be a nightmare. 1061 01:21:34,422 --> 01:21:37,125 Don't get too much beer. 1062 01:21:34,422 --> 01:21:37,125 I'll get what I need. 1063 01:21:37,158 --> 01:21:39,060 I'm just saying don't get too much. 1064 01:21:39,093 --> 01:21:40,361 Ditto regarding the sprouts. 1065 01:21:40,394 --> 01:21:42,263 Oh, get some smoked salmon, will you? 1066 01:21:42,296 --> 01:21:44,399 Oh, aye? Just a wee bit for you? 1067 01:21:44,432 --> 01:21:45,567 [Tom] Aye. 1068 01:21:58,579 --> 01:21:59,780 [chuckles] 1069 01:22:01,582 --> 01:22:05,219 Put a wee bit of tinsel round the goldfish tank too, will you? 1070 01:22:05,252 --> 01:22:07,622 I will if I've got enough left. 1071 01:22:07,655 --> 01:22:10,492 The fish needs to know it's Christmas. 1072 01:22:07,655 --> 01:22:10,492 Oh, aye. 1073 01:22:23,671 --> 01:22:26,307 You want some more wine? 1074 01:22:23,671 --> 01:22:26,307 No, I'm all right. 1075 01:22:26,340 --> 01:22:28,310 Got enough there, thanks. 1076 01:22:30,444 --> 01:22:33,481 Know what I was thinking? 1077 01:22:30,444 --> 01:22:33,481 No, Tom. What were you thinking? 1078 01:22:35,716 --> 01:22:39,254 We should invite your man Steve over for Christmas. 1079 01:22:41,422 --> 01:22:43,424 Yeah, that's a good idea. 1080 01:22:43,457 --> 01:22:45,627 I do have them sometimes. 1081 01:22:47,495 --> 01:22:49,998 Not Christmas dinner though. 1082 01:22:50,031 --> 01:22:52,767 I hadn't thought when, but why not Christmas dinner? 1083 01:22:52,800 --> 01:22:56,771 Well, I'm sure he's got other places to be anyway. 1084 01:22:56,804 --> 01:22:58,339 He might be on his own. 1085 01:22:58,372 --> 01:23:00,742 He mightn't want to come out on Christmas Day. 1086 01:23:02,043 --> 01:23:04,645 Maybe, but how do you know that unless you ask him? 1087 01:23:04,678 --> 01:23:09,083 You ask him, then he says, "I can, I can't. I want to, I don't want to." 1088 01:23:09,116 --> 01:23:12,487 Yeah, but he might feel under pressure if we ask him. 1089 01:23:13,354 --> 01:23:15,289 Why don't you leave the decision up to him 1090 01:23:15,322 --> 01:23:16,758 instead of you making it for him? 1091 01:23:16,791 --> 01:23:20,595 Even though we haven't even asked him the question yet. 1092 01:23:24,231 --> 01:23:26,634 All right, but just not Christmas Day. 1093 01:23:26,667 --> 01:23:29,737 A drink then. Invite him round for a drink. 1094 01:23:29,770 --> 01:23:32,106 Yeah, that would be lovely. 1095 01:23:32,139 --> 01:23:34,542 Okay. You have his number? 1096 01:23:32,139 --> 01:23:34,542 Yeah. 1097 01:23:35,509 --> 01:23:38,580 Will you phone him or will I? 1098 01:23:35,509 --> 01:23:38,580 You can phone him. 1099 01:23:39,513 --> 01:23:40,615 Right. 1100 01:23:42,249 --> 01:23:43,651 I know what we've just said, 1101 01:23:43,684 --> 01:23:46,421 and I'm not saying this will happen, but... 1102 01:23:46,454 --> 01:23:47,555 Tom... 1103 01:23:48,756 --> 01:23:52,160 if you want to ask him for Christmas, ask him for Christmas. 1104 01:23:52,193 --> 01:23:54,128 Okay. Hey... 1105 01:23:54,161 --> 01:23:55,530 do we have enough Brussels sprouts? 1106 01:23:55,563 --> 01:23:57,699 [laughs] More than enough. 1107 01:23:58,632 --> 01:24:03,471 [woman on stereo] ♪ Merry Christmas ♪ 1108 01:24:03,504 --> 01:24:08,410 ♪ To you ♪ 1109 01:24:19,453 --> 01:24:22,657 [woman] ♪ Isn't it so? 1110 01:24:25,159 --> 01:24:30,498 ♪ There's no black Without blue ♪ 1111 01:24:36,237 --> 01:24:39,274 ♪ Isn't it so? ♪ 1112 01:24:41,609 --> 01:24:47,482 ♪ It's not so bad When it's good ♪ 1113 01:24:51,252 --> 01:24:55,323 ♪ You can't make the grade Till you stumble ♪ 1114 01:24:55,356 --> 01:24:56,724 [laughing] 1115 01:24:56,757 --> 01:25:00,461 ♪ So why sit around And mumble? ♪ 1116 01:25:00,494 --> 01:25:03,431 ♪ Let your poor heart rest ♪ 1117 01:25:04,298 --> 01:25:08,503 ♪ For better or worse, you bet 1118 01:25:20,247 --> 01:25:23,451 ♪ Is ♪ 1119 01:25:24,451 --> 01:25:27,255 ♪ It ♪ 1120 01:25:28,389 --> 01:25:30,725 ♪ So? ♪ 1121 01:25:35,262 --> 01:25:38,366 ♪ Isn't it so? ♪ 1122 01:25:41,602 --> 01:25:45,640 ♪ It's an ebb and a flow ♪ 1123 01:25:52,279 --> 01:25:55,316 ♪ Isn't it so? ♪ 1124 01:25:57,785 --> 01:26:02,624 ♪ A give and take Don't you know? ♪ 1125 01:26:08,529 --> 01:26:12,900 ♪ Right or wrong Wrong or right ♪ 1126 01:26:12,933 --> 01:26:17,305 ♪ Like a song's sweet reprise 1127 01:26:18,639 --> 01:26:21,743 ♪ Let your poor heart rest ♪ 1128 01:26:22,610 --> 01:26:26,848 ♪ For better or worse, you bet 1129 01:26:35,389 --> 01:26:38,726 ♪ Is ♪ 1130 01:26:39,493 --> 01:26:42,564 ♪ It ♪ 1131 01:26:43,998 --> 01:26:47,335 ♪ So? ♪ 1132 01:26:52,406 --> 01:26:58,713 ♪ Isn't ♪ 1133 01:27:00,281 --> 01:27:02,650 ♪ It? ♪ 1134 01:27:08,322 --> 01:27:11,492 ♪ Isn't it so? ♪ 1135 01:27:13,961 --> 01:27:18,600 ♪ It's a calm and a storm ♪ 1136 01:27:24,772 --> 01:27:27,875 ♪ Isn't it so? ♪ 1137 01:27:30,711 --> 01:27:36,584 ♪ A candle in a window ♪ 1138 01:27:40,788 --> 01:27:45,626 ♪ Hail winds blow To a clear blue sky ♪ 1139 01:27:45,659 --> 01:27:48,863 ♪ Tides fall and rise ♪ 1140 01:27:49,863 --> 01:27:53,801 ♪ Stars above The moonlight mirrors ♪ 1141 01:27:54,802 --> 01:27:57,471 ♪ For better or worse ♪ 1142 01:27:57,504 --> 01:27:59,540 ♪ You are ♪ 1143 01:28:06,847 --> 01:28:10,885 ♪ Isn't it so? ♪ 1144 01:28:15,723 --> 01:28:20,695 ♪ Isn't it so? ♪